Oo lala.

So much sht has happened lately, but I'm not tripping bout it though. One more day until schools over & then three more days until Vegas. Yeeaa boooy<3. I gotta tumblr now so I'll try to keep this updated. I don't even think anybody reads this anymore but whateeeeeever. Kbye

Untitled.

I realized that so much has happened in so little time. Damn time goes by hella fast. I never thought things would have turned out the way it did. But hey, it is what it is. I'm sorry for everything and putting you through all of this. Maybe this could turn out for the better. Maybe we could have tried to make it work, but what's done is done. Do your thang tho & I'll do mine. &Like you said maybe later on we could try again but right now it just ain't happening for you or for me. I was going through old sht that made me realize shit & I read a post that made me smile. I've been there for you from the very beginning. I always was & always will be here for you no matter because I care about you. Please don't worry about me I'm fine, trust me when I say that I'll be okay. But anyways to answer your question in the previous post, Yeah I'll be your bestfriend. But if you're okay with that because I know I am. We haven't been talking lately but I'm not gona' lie, I do miss you & I do miss talking to you but I'm pretty sure you're not trying to deal with me and my BS right now so yeah. Just know that I'll always love & care about you.

Why can't I love you in slow motion

Could you be my bestfriend, before you call yourself my man. I want to get to know you a little more before we start over again, this break up might be a good thing for us. You never know what the future may hold for us, Like I said think of allllll the positives &Never the negatives. Btw, don`t you like my master piece over the left [; I gots some good ass photography skills! YAAAWP, wellllls just keep your head up high &Time will fly by. Loveeeee always, your one &Only baby<3

Thas my baaby right there<3

So basically these past couple of weeks have been absolutely crazy, one day we`re happy the next day we`re both in tears. I just want to make everything work, I honestly do but without trust I don`t know how to make it work. It makes me cry every night knowing that I want to trust you so badly but I honestly can`t..My insecurities feel as if they`re taking over me and not letting me gain my trust for you because I`m too scared of getting hurt &I know you`ve told me about a billion times that you won`t hurt me, or that you won`t hurt me in a certain way it`s just so hard to trust again once I lose it /: I wished I had never found that text message because things would have been different right now, we wouldn`t be on this so called break that we`re on and everything would have been something that I would like to call "Almost Perfect". We`ve both shared our share of tears for one another but now I`m just trying to figure out how to react to this whole situation. I never imagined us being in this type of situation, &Now that we already have I honestly don`t know what to do or think anymore..It hurts me enough to know stuff like this went down when I never thought it would, I care about you a lot &Sometimes I`m scared to even show you that I care because I don`t want to get hurt. Even though I try to hide my feelings at times, you already know that I do care about you a lot &I don`t want to loose you either. Sometimes I just need my space so I could figure everything out, Honestly if I don`t find a way to trust you again I don`t know what`s going to happen to us because the key thing to relationships is, Communication, Trust &Love. Without those nothing is going to work, Being miles away from you is hard but what makes it even harder is the fact that everyday I have to worry about everything now. Everything going in &Out of my mind is a whole bunch of "What If's" I don`t want to think about what if's anymore, I`m tired of it. I just want us to work everything out &Thas basically all. Oh &I know I told you that I`m not ready to tell you this yet but I honestly don`t care anymore because I LOVE YOU, forreals babe<3.

P.$. I miss you

♥ Your One &Only Girl(: